Nothing much has happened these few weeks. In camp, after the series of terrible outfields, its back to preparation for Australia. Lots of stuff to prepare and everything, its gonna be tough. Haha. Looking back, it has been quite a while since i enlisted. 15122007. The very day when i enlisted. Now its 31082008. Wow has been a good 8.5 months. Haha. But as compared to my specs and officers in camp, it's a long way man. Haha. Things have been rather repetitive every since i got into MSU. To some extent, I kinda feel that my brain has been rapidly degrading ever since. No no, it should be ever since i enlisted. Everyday to me is another day closer to bookout (A.k.a. freedom). Gotta start doing something soon. Haha. At least for me, getting into Armour has somewhat assured my interest in engineering- creating and improving on things.

Despite so, there's something missing in my life at the moment, and I've got no idea what it is. Strange isn't it. I feel this deep sense of emptiness and sometimes, I would think if it's regret.

Regret about putting no to command school? Maybe. Sometimes I do wonder what life would be like if i did enter command school. Haha.
Regret about not applying for medicine? Maybe. The prospective of being a doctor is fantastic enough for me not to imagine.
Regret about not putting in effort for my scholarship interview? Maybe. The temptation of not having to pay for my education is too much. And the free cash.. Damn.
Regret about not applying for overseas university? Maybe. The prestige and freedom, away from the stresses of the local education system. Why not?

Regret Regret Regret. It's a terrible thing to feel. And I hate it. At every stage in life, one would tend to look back and say to one-self. What if.. What if.. What if.. Too many of these "what if" is terrible, but one can't help but think this way. I know I have to be contented with my life but never once did I stop thinking about what would life be IF I took another route in life. Too tempting. Haiz. This continuous thoughts of possibilities is causing distraught to my mind. So perhaps my 19th Birthday wish could simply be for everyone including myself to be satisfied with the present and believe in the decisions that one make. It's no point regretting in life I guess. Life's too short for that. Minus away such negative thoughts and life seems so much lighter and brighter doesn't it? Haha.

Oh and big thanks to my bunkmates for celebrating my birthday in camp! Haha. Really appreciate it. (minus the taupok! HAHA)