Have been spending my whole afternoon watching youtube videos. I think vincent's right, 星光幫 is really good. Hahaz. Lol.

Anyways A's are officially over for me. So yes i feel liberated. So long are the days where i cant help feeling guilty for not studying. And yes no more tests and exams for at least 2 years. So thats the nice part. But somehow, when i am studying, i want freedom. But when i really get it, i am not as happy as i think i should be. Strange enough. Perhaps thats human nature. Anyway headache's never ending. The next thing i have to fret about is which university course i will study. Frankly speaking i really do not know. People tend to get greedy, especially in this competitive world of ours. There are courses that i am interested in, but that very often is NOT a feasible choice. So i have to compromise. Tentatively, i think my few choices are: (in no order of preference)

1) Double degree in Chemical engineering and Business Administration
2) Medicine (for some reason)
3) Chemical Engineering
4) Chemistry
5) Pharmaceutical Science

But it all depends on my grades next year. Scholarships are also a great hassle. There are so many of them that i do not know which is the one i really want. I just want to learn to be more independent and not depend so much on my parents for university funding. Yes i do have a few choices in mind but I've got no idea which is better. Anyone can enlighten me? My choices are:

1) ExxonMobil Scholarship
2) PSC Merit Scholarship
3) NUS Undergraduate Merit Scholarship
4) Engineering Scholarship

Oh mind, mention scholarships and I never fail to get headaches. Anyways I've got till March 2008 to think through and hope my results are not as atrocious.

On a happier note, yesterday after biology p1 went to orchard with class people to do some shopping. Bought 3 CD's and a pair slippers. And I have a long list of things to get before i get enlisted into the army. My shopping list:

1) Prom stuff
2) New hp without camera
3) Hellgate : London
4) New graphic card and RAM for my PC
5) New Shoes?
6) Christmas present for my cg-mates?
... and the list goes on.

Haha.. I suddenly feel so empty. I mean my wallet. On never mind because I'm gonna get my 1st paycheck soon. Not any paycheck. Army paycheck. Oh and i haven't met up with lots of friends for a long time man. Hope i get to go out with them soon before i get enlisted. Oh and there's class chalet too. It's gonna be an exciting 3 weeks before i get enlisted. =D

Yes! LAST PAPER ON THURSDAY! Yes.. it's the LAST paper. Hahaz. I can begin to sense the liberation already. (Actually i already felt it since after econs.. lol) Oh n congrats to all the physics people. It's post As already! Unfair.. =X

Anyway i think 蕭敬騰 is damn good. Must go listen to some of his songs. =D

Chem was ok, so 3 papers left! Ah Biology paper 3 just spoils everything. I've been wasting my entire weekend. I need help sitting down to study. 3 more papers. That's the greatest motivation i guess. Hahaz. Feeling good. Tmr is gonna be a good day. I hope. =D

Yes, another free day without any paper. This week has been full of ups and downs. Physics P3 was pretty bad, and i can't help feeling damn terrible because i changed lots of my right answers for wrong ones for some god knows reason. Haiz. Anyway hope that does not deprive me of an A for physics. Chemistry was pretty good! Happy. Then economics was okay. Essay was quite ok because I've done the monopoly question before and so it's mere regurgitation. BUT i think I'm quite stupid. I actually read the question wrongly and wasted 25 minutes writing an essay totally OFF. Oh mind damn panicky. The question was something like should the government relax control on market dominance.. but i interpreted it as should the government relax control on imports! And there i went to write 1.5 pages on international trade! Damn scared man! But lucky i made up a lot of time during case study and i wrote super fast. So at the end i could finish, but not sure if its good enough for an A. Anyway economics is OVER! OVER! OVER!It's as good as the end of A's man! 4 papers to go. Chem P1 tomorrow, followed by Biology P3, Physics P1, Biology P1. 10 papers down! 4 to go! I need some discipline now. LOL.

Yeps half way through the A's already. It has been pretty good so far other than GP that i can never do well in. Lets hope everything will get even better.=D

For some reason, I've the urge to blog again. Yes, exam's starting on tuesday and i'm not fully prepared yet. But, there's always time to laze around. Yesterday my neighbour's maid's going home so my maid went to ask her to bring some stuff back. When i asked what she sent back, she told me a few bars of toberonne and some clothes and that's it. Then i asked her "what for? Its available everywhere.." Then she told me how rare toberonne was in the Philippines and that anyone who grabs hold of one has to be filthy rich or have friends that are filthy rich. Only then did it actually struck me that not everyone is as fortunate as me. And that she has only eaten toberrone in Singapore because my bro has lots of them in the fridge. Momentarily, i felt quite terrible. Maybe its because i never knew that a bar of chocolate would be that valuable to others because its so available here, but had the urge to buy a box of toberonne and send it back for her. I never knew that such little things can make someone else's day.

Or rather, Singaporeans should learn to appreciate the things that we take for granted more. To us, we complain over every trivial thing, from slight GST hike all the way to gay issues. But never once did we sit down and reflect on what we have. Yes i got to admit things in Singapore is quite costly, but at least they are available to us. As long as we put our hearts to do things, we will get somewhere. I not like other places around the world where not everyone has this chance. In Singapore, most of us stand on a common platform. All we have to do is to try our very best and that's it.. Sigh.

I been studying a lot these few days, but simultaneously thinking about lots of stuff as well. Guess it's about time, me, an eighteen year old guy gain some enlightenment about life. For the past 18 years of my life, I been living it like a brat. I know nothing much about life outside of this island. I guess thats the excitement and passion for traveling. To understand others, their home, their culture and their way of life. These things never bothered me before, but i guess people do change. Or rather mature. Now i understand why my parents are so eager to travel around the world at least once in their life. To discover a world so different from our's yet inhabited by people too.

I sound weird above, but i guess those are words of a child that has thought through life for the first time. Anyway I've got no idea why I'm spending like 1 hour thinking and typing while i should be mugging and slogging it out like any JC2 student now. Confidence? Not exactly. No no, it can't be it. I've got a strange habit of watching more TV than ever during exams period. For me, the amount of TV time must be equal or greater than the amount of study time. Any imbalance and i will just feel stressed out. LOL. Got to kick the habit. But the series of exciting TV coming up ain't helping me that bit. So just hope i can find time to study. I guess that it for now till the end or the exams, which is on 22 November. Wow, i wonder how i would ever survive, but i just have to i guess. So mug hard people, and don't ever neglect your health too! All the best!