It's the weekends again!

Yet another week has passed. Nothing special happened in school. Life's as per normal. But this weekend, my parents started digging out old photos of my family and looking through those surprisingly well-preserved photos, it really brings back great memories of the past. I'm so amazed that they could actually find photos of my great great grandparents. Yes the photos are really old, but my parents got some photo guy to preserve it. It's in really good condition actually. And I'm actually very fortunate to at least get to know how the many generations above me look like. I came across this photo that really caught my attention.

Grandpa, me, my bro, grandma

As you can see the photo quality is not that good coz it's framed up and I took a photo of a photo with my camera. Haha. Anyway this one's especially meaningful to me. I don't know why but until now, I can still vividly remember what happened that day, which happened to be my 3rd birthday (duh, you can actually count the number of candles on the cake =X). Yupz, those were the really happy days, where I still have my grandparents dote on me like anything. They would buy me everything I wanted and never ever scold me! I can remember them hiding me whenever my parents wanted to cane me when I was mischievous. My grandma spoilt me with toys all the time, despite my parents opposing it. And she would tell me not to tell my parents that I got a new toy. Haha. It was really amusing. And even when my grandma was down with cancer, she never failed to prepare breakfast for me every morning before school. It was always a simple meal of egg sandwich and milo, but every meal was filled with nothing but warmth and love. And she would help me pack my bag and send me to school everyday and wait anxiously at the gate for my return.

And not forgetting my grandpa who would spoil me all the newest mobile phones and go around the entire neighborhood boasting about his grandsons. He would go walk around puffing a stick of cigarette while teaching me not to smoke. And he would also use some hokkien expletives while teaching me not to use them! Hahaha. Oh oh and nearing my A's he would randomly walk in my room and ask me not to study so much. Hahaha. His expression is always damn funny! Such an irony but I guess all the reverse psychology worked. =D

Until now, I can still remember their final words. And it was that they were really proud of me. It motivates me a lot - to know that no matter what I do and what choices I make, there's always these 2 fine people who will support me and feel proud of me. And I guess that's what kept me going no matter how tough things are. Thinking back, my grandparents played an ever so important role in my childhood. I really miss them.

Unfortunately, I realized that I stopped taking photos with my grandparents ever since I entered primary school. Such a pity. Looking through the photos, I really treasure each and everyone of them. Each holds an important memory from my past. As time pass, we begin to forget many things that happened in the past, and it's these photos that remind me of those precious moments. Lots of sentimental value. I realize that whenever it's nearing my grandma's anniversary that I begin to think back and reflect on my past.

One thing I've learnt over the years - Everything happens for a reason, and that one needs to go through the ups and downs in life to become a better person.

Damn, I feel so old each time I think of the past. Haiz.

Yupz, that's all for now. =D

Mid-Terms

This week's been a really long and painful week. Tuesday and Wednesday were when my midterms were held. Hmm.. What can I say about my midterms? I just feel very dissatisfied bah. First up's IT1005. Thought I did a totally shitty job, with my very limited knowledge and interest in computing. But turned out I didn't do too badly. MCQ section was surprisingly good! Hope I don't screw the second part too badly. CN2122 Quizzes were fine. But the midterms was painfully difficult with just 4 MCQ's worth a total of 100 marks. Ridiculous, but oh well. Hope I won't fail that. CN2121 was really disappointing. It's a really simple question but I thought to complicatedly. So yupz, so again, I don't expect much from this too, coz I myself ain't very convinced by my own calculations. Haiz. EC1301 was fine. Thought I did pretty well for that so hope that I can push on for the finals. Math was the most disappointing! I knew how to do all the questions but I lack confidence in my answers! So I changed my correct answers to wrong ones. SIAN. That's why I hate MCQ papers. WP2201H was rather disappointing too. The lecturer commented that my paper was well written, she couldn't give me a good grade coz there were tenses error! Not that serious one, but just some style that the lecturers generally do not agree to. So yupz, I got penalized a bit. But at least I know I'm the right track, so yupz, that's some consolation for me.

Overall, my CN and MA modules ain't doing too well, while my WP, IT and EC seems within striking range of my target. I could blame it on my insane exam schedule, but I choose not to. I feel that this time round, I was over-confident and didn't really prepare my work well. Left some doubts hanging in my core modules. So yupz, gotta really buck up if I want to hit my target. 

I was feeling terribly down throughout Thursday and Friday. I guess it's quite obvious when I suddenly act a bit anti-social and quiet. Yupz, I guess I need some time to get over the disappointment. But yupz, 01 therapy always works wonders. Haha. Met up with the 01 gang at NUS and went over to Airport to send Vincent off to London. I can never say anything logical and serious when I'm with them! I'm always full of crap and laughing till my jaws become sore.  And that's exactly what I need. To escape the seriousness of life in Singapore. Yupz, I guess going out with them help me forget all my disappointment and start fresh. Now, what I need is a good night's sleep. Tomorrow will be a new beginning for me. 

Ok after this round of midterms, the next important event would be to apply for SEP. I have a few choices in mind, but probably I would try to get Imperial College. Alternative choices are UC Berkley and UIUC. So yupz, see how it goes. Need to do my module mapping too. Lots of work to be done. 

It's gonna be a really busy next couple of weeks, and in no time, the final exams would be here! Terrible. I'm still constantly plagued by Matlab Lab Reports that take forever to do. Tutorials are getting more do-able for me, but new stuff is constantly being taught. University education is quite a challenge, but I guess consistent work is still the way to go. This midterms have been a really good wake-up call for me. So yupz, jiayou bah!