HaHa... Very stress now sia... found out all my O levels dates le... i realli freak out sia... If im not wrong Physics and SS on the same dae... den A maths n Elective Geog on same dae oso... den summore the 3 sciences are on 3 consecutive daes... bio den phy den chem... This is the first time reality realli struck me... exams r comin... n i realli have to buck up n stop slacking ... or else... i realli dun wanna noe the consequence ... n worst of all... chinese O levels on May 30... n i have to score an A1... or else have to retake... den i will realli be stressed out like shit sia... realli dunno y... nowadaes every tests seems soO scary to me... every test oso no confident... realli not the usual me... todae got back 2 phy tests... very sad sia... first test got 20/24... den second test got 22/26...very bad sia... alex i think got like 23/24 and 26/26... i was like soO damn depressed... that simply shows that people nowadaes r realli cheonging alreadi... n me leh? still slcking... haiz... but realli got even more depressed when heard john say he was like 1 mark away from full marks... 4 all 4 tests add together sia... wad the HecK! Cnat stand him sia...den bcoz of these 2 tests my phy drop to 71/80... which is like onli 89%... expected better...but its alrite... gotten over it le... den came add maths... i am SHOCKED... i onli got 29/40 for the second test... realli depressed sia... soBs... den now my A Maths total 49/60(82%)... lucky 1st test got full sia... or else...
Ok... aT this very moment i am writing this entry... im realli realli very stressed... realli have to relax a lill...cant take it much longer... i always seems soO happy and laughing like mad in skool... but realli... im not feeling that happy...haha... n im laughing not becoz i find it funny... but instead... i dunno wad to feel... Realli dunno y... feeling soO stressed altho my parents dun give me any pressure...neither do my tutors... but jus feeling like im soO useless... always not satisfied wif my marks... altho they r good enuf le... actaulli... haiz...i oso dunno lah...maybe i compare myself wif those realli good ppl ba... john...Choon Wei ...etc or maybe teachers' expectation ba... i dunno lah...im simply MAD now...realli...-_-'
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