IM SOO FULL

Hahaz.. jus came home frm dinner.. 2dae my grandpa treat his 5 dear grandsons(coz he dun have any granddaughters.. lol..).. yah.. went to bedok there have dinner.. my cousin hu jus came back to S'pore 4 his hols came to fetch us.. ahahz.. (saves the taxi fare..) Den go there he was like order everything lah.. all large orders summore.. so much so that 6 of us had to sit on a 10 seater table.. and the table was FAR toooo small to fit all the dishes.. hahaz.. had to serve separately.. ahhaz.. so kewl.. damn nice lah.. eat non stop.. den crap alot too.. hahaz.. months nvr c them le.. (n i dun mean my bro.. lol..).. n my dear grandpa must have felt to left out coz we werent toking to him at 1st.. hahaz.. coz he quite lao dao.. n worst of all.. ppl may think that we r scolding him coz he's abit hard of hearing.. but yah.. i realised that he cud hear better if we were toking in teochew.. hahz.. yah.. lucky i can speck a lill.. so had a nice time toking to him.. ahahz.. lol..

My grandpa must have felt sooo proud to have 5 grandsons all grown up n yah.. one is even finishing his University education and becoming a lawyer soon.. plus 2 grandsons, my older cousin n my bro in army n goin to University to study computer and electrical engineering respectively nxt april.. hahaz.. n another 2 grandsons (me n my slightly younger cousin) in JC le.. ahhaz.. if i were him that wud be the best thing man.. hahaz.. esp if all my grandsons were to graduate n become professionals.. hahaz.. thats the best man.. ahhaz.. once my grandpa told me that his wish was to c me graduate frm Uni.. which is like in..7 yrs time.. so by den he wud already be 85 yrs old.. hahaz.. n hope he wud be a great grandfather by den (which is realli possible.. ahahz.. ).. so yah.. c as ppl get older.. they realli think differently.. they no longer think much of themselves.. they think 4 their children, grandchildren or even great grandchildren..

About a month b4 my great grandma passed away.. she was still telling me she wanted to be a great great grandma.. to c my oldest cousin graduate, get married and have a child.. but yah.. life is fragile.. n most unpredictable.. when she told me that.. she cud still drink coke and ate anything frm KFC to char kway teow.. but in jus one short month..she suddenly fell ill and passed away in jus 2 days.. c how fast that is.. no one expected that.. she was 93.. at least she passed away a happy woman.. having seen all her great grandchildren all grown up n happy.. now i realli miss her.. seriously.. i think the 5 great grandsons were the saddest when she passed away.. coz we were closest to her since we were born.. coz the rest all moved away leaving us 5.. ahhaz.. haiz.. i miss her nagging.. or her staying up late waiting 4 me to come home whenever i come home late.. toking to me when i was bored.. sharing fast food with me whenever i bought it home.. protecting me frm my parents hu wanted to cane me when i was naughty yrs ago.. buying my toys when my parents refused when i was a kid.. or even bringing me out when i was young.. i realli miss her suddenly..

Now at the dinner table.. there's always this one empty seat that reminds me of her.. n her room.. where she used to watch tv wif my maid.. haha.. those were the days.. happy days.. where the house was never that quiet.. even on the 3rd floor i cud hear my great grandma toking to my maid n luffing.. ahahz.. its soo different frm now.. where everyday.. all i return to is an empty house thats soo quiet u cud hear a pin drop.. n the noisest thing i hear is my maid mopping the floor.. haiz.. thats life.. altho life wasnt as comfortable when i was young.. where i was still living at the shophouse.. but i was realli happy.. at least i had my entire family wif me n caring for me.. i felt soo pampered den.. hahzz.. i rmb den that i was nvr sad.. haaz.. n nvr angry for more den 2 hrs.. coz my grandma was the best at spoiling me n making me super happy.. haiz.. haiz.. i miss those days.. i miss being a small innocent n blur child.. i miss my grandma n my great grandma..