Omg.. im soooo angry wif mrs pang (my maths teacher) lah! She went to moderste the marks up lah.. 75 den A lah! how can she! Soo malu lah.. maths rep get B for maths.. haiz.. i think after moderation i am even more depressed wif my marks lah.. coz my grades seemed to have dropped instead.. sad case..

GP-- 52 D (i realli dun understand..)
Chinese-- 68 B
Maths-- 72 B
Physics-- 76 A
Chemistry-- 57 C
Biology-- 56 C
Economics-- 55 B

Im soo happy wif econs can.. ahhaz.. 55 already B sia.. wahaha.. pro sia me.. lol.. but i realli realli dun understand y my GP get D! Sooo unfair lah.. even mrs than my econs teacher agree wif me.. ahahz.. where got moderate up for GP de.. its like the 1st can.. haiz.. depressed.. so that means judging frm my grades the onli H3 i can qualify for easily is physics! So amazing sia.. i rmb in sec skool i nvr ever get an A for phy b4 sia.. ahhaz.. soo proud of myself.. ahahz.. den maybe maths still can.. the rest i think no hope le sia.. ahahz.. nvm.. i may consider nt even taking one H3 since no use.. hahaz..

Im both happy n unhappy.. how contradicting..

IM SOO FULL

Hahaz.. jus came home frm dinner.. 2dae my grandpa treat his 5 dear grandsons(coz he dun have any granddaughters.. lol..).. yah.. went to bedok there have dinner.. my cousin hu jus came back to S'pore 4 his hols came to fetch us.. ahahz.. (saves the taxi fare..) Den go there he was like order everything lah.. all large orders summore.. so much so that 6 of us had to sit on a 10 seater table.. and the table was FAR toooo small to fit all the dishes.. hahaz.. had to serve separately.. ahhaz.. so kewl.. damn nice lah.. eat non stop.. den crap alot too.. hahaz.. months nvr c them le.. (n i dun mean my bro.. lol..).. n my dear grandpa must have felt to left out coz we werent toking to him at 1st.. hahaz.. coz he quite lao dao.. n worst of all.. ppl may think that we r scolding him coz he's abit hard of hearing.. but yah.. i realised that he cud hear better if we were toking in teochew.. hahz.. yah.. lucky i can speck a lill.. so had a nice time toking to him.. ahahz.. lol..

My grandpa must have felt sooo proud to have 5 grandsons all grown up n yah.. one is even finishing his University education and becoming a lawyer soon.. plus 2 grandsons, my older cousin n my bro in army n goin to University to study computer and electrical engineering respectively nxt april.. hahaz.. n another 2 grandsons (me n my slightly younger cousin) in JC le.. ahhaz.. if i were him that wud be the best thing man.. hahaz.. esp if all my grandsons were to graduate n become professionals.. hahaz.. thats the best man.. ahhaz.. once my grandpa told me that his wish was to c me graduate frm Uni.. which is like in..7 yrs time.. so by den he wud already be 85 yrs old.. hahaz.. n hope he wud be a great grandfather by den (which is realli possible.. ahahz.. ).. so yah.. c as ppl get older.. they realli think differently.. they no longer think much of themselves.. they think 4 their children, grandchildren or even great grandchildren..

About a month b4 my great grandma passed away.. she was still telling me she wanted to be a great great grandma.. to c my oldest cousin graduate, get married and have a child.. but yah.. life is fragile.. n most unpredictable.. when she told me that.. she cud still drink coke and ate anything frm KFC to char kway teow.. but in jus one short month..she suddenly fell ill and passed away in jus 2 days.. c how fast that is.. no one expected that.. she was 93.. at least she passed away a happy woman.. having seen all her great grandchildren all grown up n happy.. now i realli miss her.. seriously.. i think the 5 great grandsons were the saddest when she passed away.. coz we were closest to her since we were born.. coz the rest all moved away leaving us 5.. ahhaz.. haiz.. i miss her nagging.. or her staying up late waiting 4 me to come home whenever i come home late.. toking to me when i was bored.. sharing fast food with me whenever i bought it home.. protecting me frm my parents hu wanted to cane me when i was naughty yrs ago.. buying my toys when my parents refused when i was a kid.. or even bringing me out when i was young.. i realli miss her suddenly..

Now at the dinner table.. there's always this one empty seat that reminds me of her.. n her room.. where she used to watch tv wif my maid.. haha.. those were the days.. happy days.. where the house was never that quiet.. even on the 3rd floor i cud hear my great grandma toking to my maid n luffing.. ahahz.. its soo different frm now.. where everyday.. all i return to is an empty house thats soo quiet u cud hear a pin drop.. n the noisest thing i hear is my maid mopping the floor.. haiz.. thats life.. altho life wasnt as comfortable when i was young.. where i was still living at the shophouse.. but i was realli happy.. at least i had my entire family wif me n caring for me.. i felt soo pampered den.. hahzz.. i rmb den that i was nvr sad.. haaz.. n nvr angry for more den 2 hrs.. coz my grandma was the best at spoiling me n making me super happy.. haiz.. haiz.. i miss those days.. i miss being a small innocent n blur child.. i miss my grandma n my great grandma..

Woah.. another week has passed.. n yah.. got back most of my JCT results.. not as gd as i had wanted.. but its ok lah.. im satisfied for now.. hahaz..

Maths-- A
Physics-- A
Chemistry-- C
Chinese-- B

Im nt too sure abt econs, bio and GP yet.. jus pray to god that i dun flunk them..

Ok.. skools almost back to normal.. lessons resume.. so that means more tutorials to do le.. haiz.. so yah.. alot more work to do.. busy busy.. hahaz.. 2dae got AR exco voting.. haha.. ran for cap.. but dun think will get it.. think vick will.. she more popular mah.. ahhaz.. lol.. den becoz of the voting cant go eat wif vincent they all.. lol.. food shud be more impt.. humph.. Den at the bus stop met xu lao shi.. hahaz.. my chi teacher.. he's very.. hmm.. crazy.. hahaz.. he's sooo nt a typical teacher.. he's more like a gd fren lah.. hahaz.. crap wif him.. den realised he oso taking same bus.. coz he got to go st pats for this excel fest thingy.. den he dun even noe where st pats was.. lol.. crazy lah him.. bt damn funni.. hahaz..lol..

I think i realli shudnt be unhappy wif anything.. results or wadso ever.. hahaz.. y bother.. getting unhappy is realli a torture dun u agree? I think being happy is the most impt thing if anyone wants to succeed.. be satisfied wif ur life.. hahaz.. but sumthimes.. forcing urself to be happy is realli a torture.. lol.. its sooo contradicting.. nvm.. but frm now on i will nt get upset over any small matter like i used to.. hmm.. onli sumtimes lah.. ahhaz.. i cud still rmb the time when i was a small kid.. i used to be very very bad tempered.. hahaz.. n that realli made me a sad person.. n yah.. didnt have much frens when i was a kid.. but when i grow up.. i begin to learn to control my temper.. ahahz.. now i realli cant rmb a single ocassion in skool that i got angry over.. hahaz.. think lufter is realli the best medicine.. haiz.. i dunno y im typing this.. but yah.. think it doesnt make much sense to dun bother reading it.. lol..

2dae's like damn horrible lah.. 1st got back bio structured.. I FAILED AGAIN! omg.. y do i keep failing bio! i got study hor.. but still like that.. haiz.. im soo gonna give up soon man.. haizz

Den checked chem mcq ans.. got 16/20.. actualli is ok.. but den i realised my mistakes all careless de.. cant stand it man! argh!

Den checked phy mcq ans.. think got 14/24.. i noe it sucks lah.. but realli lor.. the last 5 qns i guess the ans de lor.. no time.. lol.. i deserve it.. haiz..

How bad can that be for the 1st day of getting back results.. its gonna be hell the nxt few days man.. haiz.. haiz..

TMR'S NATIONALS LE! N for once.. im realli beginning to feel damn nervous.. when the tms ppl were having their interskool.. i was still advising them n helping them nt to be nervous.. but here i am.. feeling suupppeeerrr nervous now.. that even my hand is shivering.. so thats not exactly a gd sign.. haiz.. hope i dun screw up.. PLS!

Damn im soo tired 2dae.. hahaz.. n my butt hurts.. lol.. n im sunburnt.. but nt too serious.. hahaz.. lol.. ok im realli crapping now.. coz i jus wanna slp..

Damn skool starts tmr.. will be a damn terrible day tmr.. pray i survive..

Mass PE 1st thing in the morning.. how exciting.. mr goh.. -_-"

Nationals in jus 2 very very short days.. im scared.. think i wunt do well.. 1st time i feel soo confident-less.. pressures mounting.. realli hope i can even survive this week.. coz its wud b the most stressful n demoralising wk in my life.. god save me..

Ok.. im here to congratulate the TMS shooters.. hahaz..

Air Rifle Team
B Boys-- JunJie, Cui Shan, Shao Xuan-- EZ 3rd
C Boys-- Edward, Zi Jian, Han Kuan-- EZ 2nd
B Gals-- Adeline, Jie Pin, Syahidah-- EZ 2nd
C Gals--Nabilah, Shazunnah, Hanis-- EZ 2nd

Air Rifle Individual
Han Kuan-- C boys 2nd
Adeline-- B gals 2nd
Syahidah-- B gals 3rd
Shazunnah-- C gals 1st

Hahaz.. im sure many of the other skools were kinda traumatised by them.. ahhaz.. 1st time they swept soo many medals.. i rmb last yr i was the onli one wif a B boys ind silver.. ahhaz.. this yr seems like everyone is getting.. ahahz.. so yah.. congrats to all of them.. great improvement.. hope u all will do even better nxt yr! Go TMS Shooting Team! Nxt up on tuesdae wud be TMS Air Pistol's turn le.. ahahz.. Jia You people.. make Temasek Proud.. hahaz

N jus ONE day after that will be TJC Shooting Team's turn! Ahhaz.. soo exciting..

Air Rifle Team
A Boys-- Me, Sam n Sing Wei (c.. all 3 ex-TMS shooters!)
A Gals-- Vicki, Lay Sian, Shi Qi

Air Pistol Team
A Boys-- Harry, Keith, Winston
A Gals-- Kun Feng, Jane, Lynette

Hahahaz.. Jia You TJ.. hahaz.. make the name "Temasek" proud! I think we swept the most titles.. ahhahaz.. so yah.. must cheong realli realli hard.. i realli hope can surpass NJC to claim 3rd in nationals man.. that's my aim.. even if i dun get it this yr.. i will nxt yr! I CAN DO IT! N 2 a few of my juniors.. addy, jp, jj, n cui shan.. i better c u all in tjc nxt yr.. i dun care u all by hook or by crook must must come tj.. dun go anywhere else kz.. tjc best!

N 2dae i was sooo hardworking can.. went back to TMS to train under coach winnie wif sam n vick.. ahhaz.. coz that loser mr lee refuse to open tj range.. did pretty decent 60 shots 2dae.. altho i almost died of dehydration.. soo damn hot.. hahaz.. my score was 91, 92, 92, 92, 94, 91.. so that adds up to 552.. ahhaz.. ok lah.. but nt gd either.. realli hope i can up my score evn more.. Tmr i going to TMS to train again.. but this time got non- TMS shooters going down oso.. ahahz.. Lay Sian n Shi Qi goin oso i think.. ahahz.. so yah i wud be fun.. i hope.. lol..

This morning got s shocking msg frm yan shan.. mrs lim say must finish carbonyls tutorial by tuesdae lehz! Mad lah that woman.. we jus finish JCT she say must finish tutorial le.. summore ask us bring our JCT qn paper.. bet she's going over the ans.. n im soooo gonna die so badly.. aileen will 3S me again.. ahahz.. lol..

Oh yah.. tmr is TMS Chocolate Day.. Jus like Balloon Day last yr.. they r going islandwide to sell chocs.. so when anyone c anyone of them.. must buy kz.. support Chocolate Day!

Yay! JCT is finally oovvveeerrr.. hahaz.. had 4 horrible days.. mad mugging n memorising.. hahaz.. almost died.. hahahaz.. but now that its over.. dun care le.. im soo gonna enjoy myself for the nxt few days.. taking break frm studying.. ahhaz.. ok.. the exams.. some were alrite while sum were killer.. hahaz.. chem was freakin hard.. suffered a heart attack sia.. nvr expected that my mind cud go blank when i saw sum of the qns.. hahaz.. think im so gonna fail.. den maths, chinese, bio, phy was ok.. except 4 phy i cudnt finish MCQ! coz its damn hard lah.. hahaz.. den GP i jus hope pass.. hahaz.. not tooo bad lah.. nt as bad as wad i heard frm many of the seniors.. hahaz.. hope i will do reasonably.. hahaz.. results out nxt week.. how exciting.. lol..